Photo Challenge Day 24

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change


This is where for the past 2 years I've had the opportunity to work as an assistant.  There have been a lot of great things about my job, namely the kids, but I am so ready to move forward.  If I could just change my position here and be a teacher that would be great but if not then I will be changing locations come fall.  I wish this job thing wasn't so difficult.  I wish that I knew why God was making me wait.  I'll get these epiphanies, maybe I'm here for this student, maybe I'm here to learn patience, surely I'm here so that I can understand endurance, and then when nothing changes I'm uncertain whether I've learned what I'm supposed to have learned.  As much as I understand about how God talks to people in the present day, I am certain that He called me to be a teacher.  I didn't rush into teaching.  In high school my mom was like, "You are going to be a teacher" and though I respected what teachers do I was like "Nope, not me, bigger and better plans".  And then during a summer break working with kids (when have I not worked with kids), it was like duh Rachael you are supposed to be a teacher you are supposed to be helpful.  Then the local college has the certification program with the ESL part that I felt called to, and I get in and do so great throughout the program.  And yet here I sit 2.5 years after earning that certification, 5 years after leaving Hanover, and I still don't have a full time job.  My husband still has to work 80 hours a week so we can afford adoption because my salary is so little.  I just really don't get it sometimes.  If I feel called to teach, why am I not teaching?  When will I understand?  Sorry if I'm whiny tonight, just felt the need to pour out my heart.  I am looking forward to actually being a teacher and moving pass this period of my life.  Although I'm finding it difficult I will continue to depend on God for my strength everyday.  Life changes each moment but God never changes.  God is good, all the time.


John 16:33 I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I[Jesus has] have overcome the world.